I like being empty hearted. When there is no one whose name my heart murmurs every now
and then, when there is nobody whose thoughts irk my mind all the time. I like being empty hearted. I am at peace when I am not in love. At peace with my internal complexities, and the complex world around me. The equilibrium that I have always tried to find, looks closer and more achievable.When I am not in love, I am more unbiased about things in life. Where as when in love, it is my biggest preoccupation and never stops kidding around with my subconscious. It affects my perception of things, adding another pinch of melancholy to my already melancholic existence. When in love with somebody, the dearth of that person hurts so much that it is tough for me to get out of the solitary ordeal that I undergo, and sense some normalcy in life. There is a perennial heartache, which I want to come out of, because getting myself rid of love, looks anything but impossible and sinking deeper and deeper into it looks inevitable. The act of unloving apparently lies beyond the last blue mountain…
Being able to feel the sorrow of people is my forte. And being in love takes this elite trait of mine away from me. Love spoils me, wastes me, makes me a good-for-nothing fellow, a melancholic dumb fool, living in another world of which no one knows, and nor do I…love kills me…slowly, so that I can relish every bit of the pain, that I love and loss are endowed with.
Touch Wood! I am not in love. And may it be this way forever…God Bless me…Happy Birth Day To ME…And I am TWENTy~~~~~~
i just joined the twenty club too...and i can tell you...that being empty hearted's ok...but being in love, now that your twenty, will be a totally different experience from wat twas earlier... dint mean to lecture tou... oops! =) =)
ReplyDeleteAWWW NICE POST
ReplyDeletehappy bday yaa...n yeah..you are 'not' in love eh..!
ReplyDeletehey happy b'de 2 u yar! & welcom 2 d early twenties' club......:)
ReplyDeletewell......best of luck 2 u as far as ur endeavours of nt bein in lov are concerned....:)
best of luck 2 u for nt 'falling' in lov agen....;P
My Birthday wishes to U!!
ReplyDeleteBeing not in love, though is an state of equilibrium.But I must say its quasi-static, means one never stays in the same state, and transit further to achieve next level of equilibrium.[:)]
U should never ever lose your forte, transit to the next equilibrium state.
@ shubha
ReplyDeleteLet's hope so...but i don't want love to happen to me, i wouldn't be blogging that way :D
@ kaylee
Seriously? :D
Kidding kidding...tanx :)
@ anirudh
And so be it...i can analyse life better when 'not' in love
@ amrita
jokes apart, i seriously want all those wishes to come true :D
@ Smruti
Let's make things simple...alredy u made this comment too comple. Pity the DULL me rey :D
happy birthday!! and u gave words to my feelings again :)
ReplyDeletewould love to chat with you some time you post touched me.my emaii id is galnxtdr2000@yahoo.co.in would you add me??thanks!
ReplyDelete@ krishna
ReplyDeletethanx..never knew i could give words to someone's feelings..feels great !
@ anonymous
sry, i dun use yahoo..will mail ya for sure :)
Beautiful... I agree... becuz in such a such a state, even being 'empty-hearted' means being full of other wonderful things :)
ReplyDeletebeing full of 'other' wonderful things..other as in? things wonderful, other than love?...yeah...
ReplyDeleteOutta Teens.....tons of happy returns.....
ReplyDeletei didnt know dat u were such a gud writer........keep it up....guess who i am...though i cant write at par with you but i can show some flashes of brilliance.....
ReplyDeleteAnwayz do u know the full form of life......
think and tell..
do u know what i think
Little Interesting and Funfilled Experience
so what do u think?
A hint---sometimes things dont happen but you have to make them happen........
Anonymous...
ReplyDeletei wud like to know u...ans see ur flashes of brilliance..!
hey u didnt reply my ques...i want you to come up with a fullform for life.......better than mine.....
ReplyDeleteanywayz you know me already so derz no need to know me.......!
keep replyin..
LIFE~
ReplyDeletei fail to put down in a mere 4 words something as vast as this...i have a tendency to prolong things...and i jjust cant shorten them up :)
but for u...i l come up wid something gud enuf soon...
thinking is not active in ma case..its rather passive...things just settle down on ma mind like dust settles down on furniture.. so when i TRY and think about sumthing the product isnt as interesting as it wud have been had it come down passively! so i l let the full form of life strike me unawares...n that's y it l take time... :)
meanwhile..u keep replyin
and as far as ur hint goes---sometimes things dont happen but you have to make them happen........
ReplyDeletenmmm...hmmm..lemme guess... !!!
what u r sayin iz absolutely right..even i didnt think of it in a day it just came naturally 2 me.......
ReplyDeleteanyway if u find out who i am u will get a treat.......
<...another hint...>
till then just call me anonymous
u knw i was thinkin i had alredy guessed who u are...but the question of the treat is taking ma mind to unchartered waters all over again....if i had a treat pending frm ya in any case..then Ms/Mr. Anonymous..show up...time u gave it to me..!
ReplyDeletei never said a treat is pending i just said that i will giv u a treat if u could find me...moreover why are u guessing why dont u use ur gray cells n find me...i know u can...do things da engineer's way and nt frm a layman point f view.......
ReplyDelete@nonYmou$
hey @nonYmou$
ReplyDeletegimme a serious hinT or two...or else be ready for a consequence or two :P
& by da way...
ReplyDeletei always wished i had gray cells...:( i dun have any ..so ur suggestion stands useless...!
i just had a heart i cud make no use of ..lol
oh common we all know u hav gray cells...disz ur modesty dat u dont accept...and i have given a lot f hints...as far as i know u ..u shd hav found me ....but hey what has happened 2 u...u seem 2 doin a wild goose chase...
ReplyDeletethis is fun...We're almost chatting now...!!! ahan anonymouS
ReplyDeletemost often its me who blindfolds people wid her anonymity...n takes them for a ride n stuff...what's happenin to moi :( :D
so is it lyk u r losing and acceptin defeat........
ReplyDeletei mean u r nt able to find me.......
common....wild flower......it seems this flower has always been in the garden and never been to an forest in da wild........
remember @nonYmou$
ReplyDeletei hold da strings/// at the end of the day... :) :)
hope u gat dat r8!
it seems u got a bit serious.....i am doin dis fr fun.......
ReplyDeletecommon find me..
sumtYms...i can't take humor in d ri8 sense... :D
ReplyDeleteN-E-V-A-M-I-N-D!
I assume 'I' is ur fav word,.. :) ,.. chk out 'Sad But true',... u r 1 wild writer!!!!!
ReplyDeleteNo it is not/& i wont check it out unless u accept ths :D
ReplyDeletehaha ok i accept so dat u ll check it out n say 'I' is indeed the most imp word!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeletehavin a name is js fine..y do u choose to stay anonymous? :O
ReplyDelete:) U can cal me Sam,... The one whus s sendin u links n stuff!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteCurious!!! wats ur fav piece of writin by U??!!!
ReplyDeleteSam..u cant ask me that..all my posts are me and that makes "I" ma fav word ;D
ReplyDelete'I' used to be ma fav word,... :) N i write only wen am messed up n dis makes me curious on ur writin!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeletewots so worthy of ur curiosity Sam?
ReplyDeleteWOndering Wat U R :),.. i mean,.. is it u or ur jus tunin in ur mind to get into ppls head,.. i dono words are jus wild!!!!!!
ReplyDeletewooh~! sum1's doin a lot of thinkin here..may be i am made to puzzle ppl?
ReplyDeletehaha i really hope u keep doin dis work!!!!!!! i don read a lot,.. jus came across ur stuff,.. n am here :0,.. i think if u make ppl relate to wat u wrte dats the best thing the writen word s supposed to do!!!!
ReplyDeletethankyu..i dont write for people though, i write exclusively for myself :)
ReplyDeleteAhhh dat hurts!!! lol
ReplyDeleteNeways,.. nice talkin,... U Tc,.. Gud nyt!!!! (no post) :)
ReplyDeleteSad but True :P
ReplyDeleteAhhh i got my own medicine back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteLoL..! doesn hurt as much does it :P
ReplyDeleteNaaa not at at all!!!!!!! i've tasted it many a times :),. ok chk dis out as well,.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Bad-Seed-lyrics-Metallica/4FA7183A4836D30B4825688D00351553
is it ok i keep sendin u links?? i mean i thot since u write such stuff u ll lik thse!!!
most welcome :-)
ReplyDelete:)
ReplyDeleteok opinion on my so called blog???!!! my 1 time attempt wit words,...
ReplyDeleteu're good..candid writer must say..
ReplyDeletehave js begun..way to go..
Happy Jurney :)
Expert opinion ll say :) tnx
ReplyDeleter u nvr try playfulness in love?
ReplyDeletejust playfulness..
just go out in a room..
read n share lot with him..
enjoy a song with him..
just have a eat out by stopping ur mind..
just play ful..
its a fun..
just be playful - like a moon..
ReplyDeletepresent her only once in a month..
then a lot of hide n seek..
29.03.10 - she may present her in full..
Hw u been??!! Wildflower :0
ReplyDeletehaha...i just told my story of addictedly being in love and not being able to get over it...hate that..i just wish...
ReplyDelete@sarah: r u want to say gals r alike?
ReplyDeleteRather pessimistic thought, don't you think? I think it's a great feeling, though it's as bad as death when it doesn't work out. I guess it's obviously weird to deal with life when one moment your whole life almost revolves around a single person and the next leaves you at a loss of what to do.
ReplyDeletei'm so late to the party but agree wholeheartedly
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