B-reft.

I have never been taken care of. Never been told what to do. More importantly what not to do. Never been told that I am a child. Never treated like one. I have learnt things the hard way. My way. Falling. Getting up. Dragging my feet and walking again. All my life I have lived alone. Trembling with fear on dark unending nights I have evaluated the options at hand. I have taken my own decisions. Commited my own mistakes. Suffered my own regrets. Cried alone. I have been expected to behave like an adult. I missed growing up. I believe I was born this way. I have made myself into all that I am. And I have so got into this habit of being by myself, that now anything else looks like an impossibility. A possibility I have been bereft of. I do all my stuff thisway. I shop alone. I scream for cabs alone. I walk alone. I live alone. And now I wonder why. Now I cry why not?

I have never been taken care of. Never been told what to do. More importantly what not to do. Never been told that I am a child. Never treated like one. I have learnt things the hard way. My way. Falling..Getting up.. Dragging my feet and..






19 comments:

Americanising Desi said...

i ve never been held in love which reminds me i m uselessly lingering around this world!

*Shreya* said...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! its sooooo touching :)

cause i don't think i'v ever been that ways :(

sort of envy you...

and thanks a ton for those lovely comments :)

Hopeless Romantic said...

I wish you won't feel alone when we tell you that we are there for you!

cheers!
A

The unsure ascetic said...

you must be one tough nut then.off late i have been wondering if there are just too many people who are complaining like you or is it a common thing with ppl to feel that they are not being cared for.

wildflower said...

@ Americanising --
oh..u reminded me..how i was trynnu forget that sad truth :D

@ *Shreya*
:) pleasure is all mine girl..had a real grt tyn readin yu..felt like i went back 2-3 yrs in my life :)

@ Hopeless Romantic
Oh! are yu ? hmm..

@ The unsure ascetic
well well..some of us are just bloody attention seekers doin rounds..& i am very much allowed to wail on my blog ..!

Mayz said...

maybe u always had ur eyes shut so tight u never saw there were ppl surroundin ya

Old Monk said...

It is always better to learn things the hard way....there will be no need to remind you. But, don't you ever feel lonely...?

wildflower said...

@ Mayank
it's weird, rather unfair. i have never got this from the people i wanted it to come from..

@ Old Monk
I do, always..

abhijit sarkar said...

It my story. How do you know it i dont know. may be we have had similar experiences. Thanks for posting.

wildflower said...

& u're welcome fr readin :)

Anonymous said...

Simple Answer - Its how you perceive a GLASS THAT IS HALF - FULL !!!

Just an added DP - u could have written that "I always write the Blog alone. No one helps me even 2-3 lines"

That would be really funny :P :P

wildflower said...

Ridiculous. Save that for SSCM! :P

B-Reft said...

Nice thoughts, friend... Good be with you.

I am B-Reft.

Anonymous said...

***Lots of BIG hugs***
Take care, God bless and be well dear S.

wildflower said...

S? A case of mistaken identity baby.

Anonymous said...

Maybe...?

wildflower said...

Or may be not! Enough already..who art thou? Or okay, don't tell me.

Anonymous said...

Or maybe..? Why so indecisive my dear Sweetness?
You have a great sense of humour..me likes.
Have a great day, take care and be well.

wildflower said...

At the end of the long and tiring usual day, humor is the one thing that holds us together. Isn't it. U be well too.