tonite i wonder if it was all my fault. if i should have held on tighter. waited for you longer. compromised a little more. understood and sacrificed like everyone else. fought harder with destiny, to keep you for mine. and not let you go this easy. ya, now it feels easy, in retrospect. then the world was upside down. i was crazier than ever. but i should have been saner. how much could that have cost?

now it has cost me love. 


Syed Ali Hamid said...

If it required that much effort, it was not worth it; would have been a pain in the neck later....even if you think it was love.

So, just flow with the Tao; the list of regrets will start diminishing.

Surya Prakash V said...

My sentiments once. But in retrospect, I enjoyed the rain while it lasted and I shouldn't have mourned a second for the spring it took away.

I am a huge fan.

Tanvi said...

@Syed: Agreed! if only she could realise it :)

Surya Prakash V said...


It all boils down to: What do I have that S/he wants. A standard of value exchange.

Then, the antithesis of what I call "Mine"! Like a mother would suspend the need to exchange for what she calls "Mine". The source of all hope and all regret, of all suspensions of belief/dis-belief.

I learnt, however, that this applies only to what we create, or have paid in full for.

What, Wi, did/could you not offer or did not have in love? I am sure sacrifice etc matter a fig in the whole scheme. Like indeed love.

Love matters a fig if you do not have what the "other" wants. I dont trust "Mine" anymore for those that I have not created, or paid in full for. Not anymore.

Call me a cynic if you must. The shades of grey have blended, there is only grey.

I do, I do. said...

Interesting read.!

Syed Ali Hamid said...

@Tanvi: I'm sure she will, as continuing with such a state of mind is like typing the two meaningless words that I'm going to do now(to prove I'm not a robot) :)

Krish said...

Sometimes I wonder if I should really leave a comment...and then sometimes I wonder if I should leave without a comment..'tonite' i would say, it was never in us to hold on or let go, was it? Efforts are just consolatory like pulling the curtains and letting the full moon in just to respect it that evening.