Antidote

I don't keep a picture of you. I would lose my mind if I did.

So I look at mine.

Strangely enough I am the only thing that reminds me of you. My love for you shows shamelessly in my picture. Between those eyes of mine, I see you. In the curl of lips, the mild pout, I see you. Definite memories of you.

It's a helpless situation. Because, now I can never get to you. Nor will you to me. I have desperately ensured that we lose each other and that every strand of contact be broken. And now that there is nothing between, you and I, I feel love. Nothing but love. Pure, stagnant, glistening, love. For the first time in forever. I feel assured that I love you. There is no glitch or doubt.

And yet I don't feel helpless  at all. Could be because I have learned not to hope. I have drawn a line & abandoned the world on the other side.

Nevertheless on some nights, I cry. And cry relentless. My mind missing out on that line between truth & untruth, I sway into thinking, wondering how would I have been if I had you.

I would have been like me, in that picture.

6 comments:

Vagabond said...

*Nevertheless on some nights, I cry. And cry relentless. My mind missing out on that line between truth & untruth, I sway into thinking, wondering how would I have been if I had you.*


some people have entire lives played out in front of their eyes, hoping wishing.

one fine day you realise you were someone else, the real you, the ideal you stays with the other person and fragments of him is found in other people, fragments of you stumbled upon when you least expect it...

Raj said...

keep walking.

Surya Prakash V said...

Hmmm.

Surya Prakash V said...

I can't help but keep the picture. It's the only 1000 words I have. Those that matter.

prateek mathur said...

all ur posts amuse me for one simple reason: how do you manage to express so much, so beautifully, in just over 300 words...!
Brilliant, sounds so cliched for your posts :)

................your's entirely said...

For one time clarify this once and for all (if you can)...Is LOVE all pain ??