It was a black and white picture. Now I have it framed and it sits on the wooden showcase in my living room. To its right I have placed the vase that you’d given me then. It has no flowers. So that just the vase reminds me of you every time I look at it.

There is nothing much around the place such that whenever I sink into the couch and kill a pillow between my arms, all I can see is the black and white picture.

And you are staring out of it. I look at you and our eyes meet. And my mind travels back to the days when we’d just a few days in hand. The look on your face is that of suppressed laughter. You played safe, not knowing when the camera would click.

I look at the glint in your eyes. A glint that sometimes feels like everything to me.

But I can’t look into your eyes for a moment longer. I couldn’t then. And I can’t now. I start shaking and my hair stands up. I lower my gaze.

And there's me. Not looking at the camera but at you.

It was near my computer, remember? I didn’t know when you’d popped up.

‘We’r gonna get our picture done? WoW! Lemme do my hair…!’

‘Please…one minute..okay…fifteen seconds?’

And then suddenly you rushed to my side, asked me to face the cam and smile. In my chair, you standing beside me, I was still looking up at you and complaining, and it got clicked.

And that second froze forever. For me to sink into my couch and stare at it years later.

Your hands quietly lay on the rim of my chair. Felt like you would never let go.
Felt like one dream that should have come to true.


14 comments:

--xh-- said...

wow.. soft and heart tugging.. like the way you portrayed... a pic of words about a moment that froze for ever...

--xh-- said...

I dont know hw to express it...
it is not dark at all.. but thn there are thin - almost transparent - strands of pain..
and hope..
and pain of loss.. of the lost moment...
and longing...
wishing for something which wont come...

love it absolutely...

ani said...

i echo xh! seriously heart tugging!!

d SINNER!!! said...

ur words to frame moments like a pic...to everlast...to remain forever

Tringers said...

cant imagine so much out of a gaze...!

beautiful..
and way too big..! wow..! loved it..!
my kindf insanity

wildflower said...

@ -xh-
~transparent strands of pain~
Aw..U said so much!

@ ani
:D

@ sinner
may be...d pic lives on but der are many oder secrets that l die wid me..

@ tringers
thnx :)

(¯`•._.•[Raaji]•._.•´¯) said...

beautifully written.

memories.. and the love we had... sigh :-)

*~*{Sameera}*~* said...

That was so exquisitely described!

Had a blob in my throat at the end of it.

none of your said...

jaisa blog vese hi commentators!(hilarious)

hay, when you write something like "a push-up bra" ,"a silicon implant"
"Fair and Lovely","The Make UP","The Cleavage"......list goes on and on, then please let me know, I would love to read.....
its all about observations,and u r damn good at it(as u claim)!

wildflower said...

@ none
your comment doesn have any significant wrt this post of mine.. m wonderin y any sane mind wud chose 2 write this here..but anyway..who m i 2 comment on ur sanity!

N!V said...

I absolutely love ur posts..

wildflower said...

err..thankyou N!V :)

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

you know you still write the same way you wrote when you wrote this piece. Good things shouldn't change.

:)

wildflower said...

2008 & 2013! Half a decade. But doesn't feel like long, when I see how much the same I read. Thanks for noticing that. The core of the soul, if there may ever be such a thing, lives unharmed.