Meanwhile

Wondering what has changed
nothing much actually
there haven't been many new movies that I have watched
meanwhile
nor licked icecreams when it's freezing outside

o yeah i have shopped a lot
lots of new dresses and shoes
closets full of colors, i have even experimented
found that mauve and purple are different
convinced myself they are
and shoes
many gave up in this rain
the way it has poured this year
you have no idea
of course you don't

nail paint in the shades of blood and black
kohl
everything. all that
i also counted my age
in decades, i look so believable
in days so impossible

never stood on rooftops to feel the wind
always ran for shelter in the rain
never ever sat down and talked
to myself or anyone
meanwhile
talking has come to scare me crazy

i bought a bracelet of gold, coiled
like a cozy snake on my wrist
has a mystic red flower on it,
somewhere in the middle
also i should get a ring
must be time
i don't know


still the same people around
who never understood my insanity
just like you didn't
but then insanity is not to be understood
it can't ever be

insanity is to be celebrated, the way i did
and stared at, the way you did


besides
nothing much has changed
not much water under the bridge
just been a few months
life has turned topsy turvy and back to fine
many times over


7 comments:

Raj said...

insanity is to be celebrated, the way i did
and stared at, the way you did.

i hope insanity can be admired. cuz that's my thing.


meanwhile
talking has come to scare me crazy
why the fuck do i actually believe that?
maybe i am insane too :)

WomanInLove said...

Talking creeps me out..yes it does!

Surya Prakash V said...

I doubt if you should get a ring right after the rains; usually ends in pains.

My fingers talk more than my sealed lips; my voice booms like a stranger onto my ears; and I have cleaned up all my emotional writing. Yet I am having the time of my life. Re-discovering love and laughter.

Soon I might need an umbrella when it's not raining.

And now; you too won't talk. I have something with women, I now know :)

Surya Prakash V said...
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Syed Ali Hamid said...

'I look so believable/in days so impossible'; that's a good one, perhaps true for me also. After reading this, I have realized that I have starting talking too much recently, both to others and myself; hopefully just a phase/or probably age.

@Surya Prakash V, I have a hunch that the umbrella will be a brightly coloured one, with flowers printed on it.

Surya Prakash V said...

Lol :)

Tan said...

insanity is to be celebrated, the way i did
and stared at, the way you did

n someone waits to hear you talk
someone wants to talk