To Pain, My friend

I have been trying to get back the pain
My pain
Because pain is my fuel
Fuel to live and write


But my pain has left me far behind
Distant in time
Dissolved in some past page of life
I miss you, pain

I miss the agony, the desperation
The impatience and anticipation
Now scavenging on bits of complacency and a stoical silence
I want to get back the time when I never ran out of pain…



25 comments:

KAYLEE said...

what why did you write that? beautiful but........

shex said...

unanswered questions........
the indifference the solitude the inane mistakes
the moments of desperation
this is life

vitruvian said...

it becomes the case of we r never happy with what ve have and always want something else....
enjoy ur life free of agony while u can...or come change places with me!![;)]
then we shall see even more beautiful work on ur blog...
cheers!!

The Hermit of Wandering Thoughts said...

reminds me of that song from the Goo Goo Dolls,"IRIS" which has a line

"When you bleed just to know that you're alive"

Pain sometimes fills in the gaping void which we often feel inside us, but don't get too addicted to it.
cheers
z

wacko said...

wow u insane!
u love pain!
u make me insane too!

cheers!
may god give you all the pain in this world :P

Rajeev said...

Pain is ur fuel to live and write?
Im confused here!

peace & love
Jeevy

wildflower said...

Everyone,
this post has aroused quite a question on my sanity. let me disclose something...

i know all of you here are in great pain...and want to get out of it, live a peaceful life somewhere in the mountains..with the one you love...

n once you get all that, you would stop blogging! one thing i have observed, i blog more when i am sad, than happy...so Pain is my fuel...

the bottom line is i would prefer pain to a 'feeling-less' indifference...

Dream catcher said...

yeah right pain is the fuel...

the more u fight more u feel that.."pain"

so lets carry it inside all the time..at least it will rejuvenate

anirudh said...

yeah but blogging isnt all about writing in pain...! u have so many horizons to discover..!

shex said...

@author of this blog
your comment touché

Sweetstickychewy said...

***Because pain is my fuel
Fuel to live and write

:) Splendid.

Cheeries.

Ashish Soni said...

something similar i experience.....

wildflower said...

@ dream catcher
Amen!

@ anirudh
i admire that jolly-good attitude...but i am a pain specialist!

@ shex
m humbled! :D

@ sweetstickychewy
thanx :)...Pain inspires...it hypnotises, makes me one compulsive writer...who writes to vomit the sorrow out. but i end up with all the more of it :( :D

@ ashish
i guess i am getting some kinda positive response this time...the previous comments are questions on my sanity, and now i realize there are people who feel the way i do!

KAYLEE said...

haha okay i get it now

annie said...

Thanks for droppin by my blog..this is beautifully written.A dash of lot of emotions thrown in.

Keep droppin by :)

vitruvian said...

ya we tend to write more when we are sad..thats very true...
but it is still crazy to ASK for pain!!

................your's entirely said...

'the most beautiful songs are those that are sung by a broken heart',they say....u prove them correct.keep going...pain serves an inspiration for me too....most of the times

wildflower said...

I am emotional n a lil over-sensitive i guess...

whatever i write...i hardly use ma brain...it's straight Dil Se~~~

@ your's entirely...
thanx a lot

there are people who relate to pain as a higher state of unhappiness... but those who really have 'the pain', know what it's like :)

starry nights said...

quite an awesome post..just luvd d way it was written.simple but..sumthing wich makes it read again n again

Standbymind said...

Right ..I totally Agree...
Pain can be of various types and due to diff reasons...but for sure it is pain that fuels one to write more n more!

and better!

Lovely Post Eva!!!

wildflower said...

Starry nights<-- thanks :)

Aman<--I knew you would agree...you see we are getting to know each other so well with time ...LoL!!!

Anonymous said...

Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up!

wildflower said...

thanx Anonymous.. it feels nice to be talked to that way..if u're readin this, thanx again

SammY said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wn0xGGoa98I

Imppressed!!!!!!!

arvind said...

seeded the pain..
its grows a tree..
and there is so mony beautiful flowers..
though the underneath is pain..

thanks for these piece..