It’s been months when I had last confessed a well kept secret. So, let’s undo that trend now.
I have had an off-beat childhood. I am not to blame anyone for it. But, I have just had one. Fortunately or unfortunately, I don’t know. Now, talking about the off-beat childhood, it was obviously enclosed. I never happened to see things for what they were. All I did was, get up the school bus from right in-front of my apartment, go to school, study hard, come back home, study harder, wait for the tuition teacher, and maintain that rank in class…
I never dared to venture out of this badly crammed up routine thing. Anything different from this would appear abnormal. And I never let anything abnormal happen.
My life was constrained, restricted in every sense of the word.
So I never got to know the world. And the world never got to know me. My mind developed strange patterns and I developed a phobia of quite a large number of things.
And all this happened before the day I stepped into college. College just freaked me out.
I got a glimpse of the things actually. And since I came to know more of the world around me, I wanted the world to know me too.
Yeah, it’s a queer thing to confess, but I genuinely wanted people to know me. For whatever the reasons be. They should just know me by face. I should be famous among whatever people I am.
And I took this becoming famous job, more seriously than I should have. It screwed up my priorities in life. Messed things up, because I thought more about what people thought about me than what I thought about myself.
So, one day, I told myself that I had had enough. I called it quits. Enough of trying to become famous and all. I am what I am.
But then life gives these tiny li’l surprises. I, actually, was famous…well..sort of…!
12 comments:
Same Pinch!!
I still wanna be superstar!...but for myself...not for neone else
A few incidents (quite early in life) for if-not-being famous but being-by-the-side of those famous during school made me pretty conscious of the 'famous' ones.
I was quite surprised when a cousin of mine while talking memories declared that I in childhood wanted to be "famous" and he thinks I have sought such a profession...but inwardly I confess I've only grown fearful of the word-FAMOUS!
this is cute... i suppose we learn from experiences and its important that we have such experiences in life :-)
glad that u realized what matters is wht u think abt u than wht others think abt u :-D
famous or not famous!
as long as you are happy..nothing rly matters!:)
:)
sweet secret sorted sugared seems!
@ prakhar
we'r all narcissists u knw... :D
@ sinner
gr8 pic gurl
@ raaji
thanx 2 d experiences that we'v learnt soso much in our lives..//
@ xh
:) lolzz
@ scribbles
realising that took some time though...!
@ Anirudh
allllittteerraatiionnn???? :D
u rite..my life is also goin in the same way..i too xperienced the same kinda childhood....nice post..
@ Wildflower..
thnku!
i am sometimes amused when i come across people who know me, but for being something i am not. it is worse than being an unknown. but well. who cares?
i second scribbles! but when we're young, i guess we do some really weird stuff. all part of the game! at the end of every thing, we learn.
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