soliloquY

~ hope i've spelt the title correctly, there are some things yu can almost never fix and get done with, once-and-for-all

~When put inside a decision box]

I end up takin impassioned decisions

instead of correct decisions

I haven been brave enuf

/More often than not

my decisions have chosen me\

instead of vice versa..

I don't regret caz it's too tirin

Too drainin

and takes a weekend to recover

I let my mistakes be

Never ask!

~this is the last time i'm talking about trees on my blog, lemme get done with it.

i realised it when i heard my cell ring

had been standing in the middle of the world

lookin at a tree,

i'm livin in autumn, tis heaven

the concerned tree has turned yellow

i.e. golden for me

an it's standin upright in the sun

an sheddin its leaves, one-by-one

they are free-fallin

an i've been standin there

trynu to feel the free fall of the leaf of gold

until my cell rang

~Sometimes i wonder i wonder where i am headed

I am not sleeping nights

And oversleeping throughout afternoons into nights

Waking up more sickly and sour-mouthed

teary~eyed, guilty for letting sleep seduce me..

~ All my life I ran not a race

but one

All my life I ran this rat race/

I have been dragggin my feet on the

Road that seemingly isn't takine me some/nowhere

~ finally but one tribute to my undyin yU..!

i looked for you in the tunnels of the dark, and in the chambers of my heart, but nowhere were you to be found. totally nowhere, absolutely nowhere. then i sort of made it a point to kill my passion and to rarely think of you. then i made it a point never to fall in love ever again. then i saw to it that nothing moved me the way you did. nothing drove me to tears like you did. noone lived in my heart, the way you did. no one even came close to breaking my heart the way you did. you did\

~ things aren workin out an i'm growin all the more indifferen to their not workin out

~ pro'ly i'm just trying to help masel..