joinin dots..

No I ain't obsessed. I hate obsession. I appreciate taking unquestionable control of things in my life. And then hurt becomes a forgotten feeling. Emotions are dictated. Mostly they don't exist. Or are too afraid to be born. There was a time when I used to fight myself perennially. Now we are out of that storm, peace is sinking into me. I am happy. May be this is the way I define happiness. I love this feeling of being absolutely totally alone in this world. It's a nice feeling. This ambience of total control, where I my emotions are self~dictated, and I decide what I should feel, more importantly, what I should feel not. It's a great feeling. Of being by myself, all the time. Of great responsibility an unbounded freedom at the same time. Solitude has become company. I know who matters and who doesn't. Almost everyone falls in the second bracket. Distinct lines, I have drawn. Carved out, rather. I can't tell you, how powerful I feel. And now, I am quite looking forward to my this stint. 


7 comments:

The Rain Crab said...

i wonder why u hav put an image of a smoking woman???
ur lines are powerful but with the image it gives the feel tat strong, powerful, and determined women smoke?!?!!?

Kinda misleading!!!

(¯`•._.•[Raajii]•._.•´¯) said...

love this piece. I can so relate to it, especially these lines:

"May be this is the way I define happiness. I love this feeling of being absolutely totally alone in this world. It's a nice feeling. This ambience of total control, where I my emotions are self~dictated, and I decide what I should feel, more importantly, what I should feel not. It's a great feeling. Of being by myself..."

Great work! :-)

Anonymous said...

are you drunk :)?
Yeah its great to take control of emotions, they fail to adhere to any logic,
But then won’t suppressing them make you non-individualistic?
(I may be talking crap, but I swear I’m nt drunk :) )

~ Lucky

ani_aset said...

I cant see the image(its blocked in office) anyways what you wrote gives some negative vibes..hope alls well

wildflower said...

@ the Rain Crab
the strong powerful and determined woman does all that she feels like, nothing/one stops her.

@ Raaji
hm..honored :)

@ Lucky
No, i am not :P ..we'l continue this later :D

@ ani_set
thins wer..neve betta :D

Boobesh said...

That feels like very powerful. do let us know how did u get there.

wildflower said...

that's a gift from Life!