Dyad?

Celine: People just have an affair or even entire relationships. They break up and they forget. They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never been able to forget anyone I have been with. Because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship when it ends really damages me, I never fully recover. That's why I am very careful about getting involved because, it hurts too much. I will miss of the person, the most mundane things, like I am obsessed with li'l things. May be I am crazy..when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late for school. One day she followed me to see why… I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees rolling on the sidewalk, or ants crossing the road… the way a leaf cast a shadow on a tree trunk… little things. I think it’s the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them, that move me, and that I miss, and… will always miss. You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details. 


Me:Talking of mundane, I am obsessed with the word itself. The sound it creates. But I have been foolish enough to believe in the possibility of existence of a deeper connection between two human beings. And that deeper connection could be called love, I thought. There could be no higher degree to this 'deeper', the two human beings are joint at their souls, they originate from a common being, separated by birth, united again, by love. I had these crazy definitions, and swore to stand by them. And the line between the ones who were my-type and not-my-type was pretty distinct, like I could even make that out when it was dark and I was drunk. Now it appears I was wrong. All wrong about bumping into the one person who would complete the picture of my life like the lost piece of a jigsaw puzzle. Like a dyad or something. 


Now I see the beauty in mundane things, and get so overwhelmed that I cry. The things that happen everyday, are the ones I look forward to. There is no apparent deeper connection, nothing philosophical about these things. But your tiny words of care, my breathless wait for you, the details of  the day we share, our mundane laughter, peals of it, the confusing silences, our conversations about life, the way it is, and not about the way it should be, the afterthoughts that follow, bring in so much joy. They captivate me so much, that I might just fall for you. 


All definitions have failed me. 



The best cure for love is finding love itself.

16 comments:

N!V said...

have u watched "The Fabulous Destiny of Amelie Poulain"??

Anurag said...

Beautifully expressed indeed. I had been following your for some time but never came in terms to show. But this post made me do so.
All i can say now, you aren't the only one here with such features.
Memories,as long as they stay they confuse us a lot.

arvind said...

our mind reach a specific peak within us - which we could never reach anytime again..

nature created us in that way.. for what me nver know..

this world is filled with so many spices - like me (as to her..)

D2 said...

Very beautifully expressed. Subtle things about people are the hardest to find, and when they have been noticed and loved, they can never be forgotten.
Love is love's cure.
Absolutely.

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

Mundane things have beauty in themselves. As one of my friends says, find beauty in imperfections.

wildflower said...

N!V
Nap! Next-must-watch :)

Anurag
hmm.. thanks, it's always gud to find someone with similar features!

arvind
i dun understan..i wudnt wan2.. :D !!

D2
yeah absly! btw, why do u call urself D2?

BA
just that we take a lot of time to realize it.. yea!

Boobesh said...

do we have enuf time for this.. to notice every aspect even before getting involved to it.. theoretically okay but in real i doubt..

Surya Prakash V said...

I had once remarked to the one I loved, and only once, that look at something long enough and you start to fall in love - its not the love of a lover, but more like a law of nature, I affect the world, just as much as the world affects me.

I am my lover now, and I now know what she meant when she said you cannot love everything - in my own way. The Mundane can be beautiful. But I no longer find beauty there, the eye has stopped looking for beauty - what the eye sees seldom changes its color in the mind.

I have become blind to the nuances, except when I come alive as an act of Will.

I find every human concern trivial.
Simple things seen out of context to create meanings that are non-existent. Full of fragile ego's and conscious of a self-image.

And my pen stops.

I just cant write anymore. What for? Whome for? And then sometimes I see a wildflower in the wild and find myself responding.

I live for today, what will rescue me tomorrow? After all I cant ask you and those I love to post everyday can I?

Thanks!

The Rain Crab said...

loved it wild... i love to observe and love the tiny details of my love too :) yeahh they will be etched in your heart and soul forever and that's why its sooo hard to lose such people!

wildflower said...

Rain.. :)

smita said...

wonderful expression...its like spilling your heart on the write up..i too have the same etched feeling..this is like my heart speaks the same words..

nOt anyone you know said...

still have these lines by Celine in my drafts folder.

wildflower said...

VB
I had no idea what you were talking about when you had quoted Celine on my blog for the first time. But now we share one more common madness. I am crazy topsy turvy about that movie! I am in love with Celine, Jesse too..!

nOt anyone you know said...

i knew you would! i have used her quotes mostly with you... =)
understanding Celine and Jesse is not at all difficult,but most people i know cannot do that. for me, they are almost life like. Celine is one character i closely identify myself with. it is like all the things i'd do and say.

Amrita Sabat said...

the two human beings are joint at their souls, they originate from a common being, separated by birth, united again, by love.- wow.......wat a beautiful thought....:)...absolutely looooved dis post! thanks fr writing........:)...cn nvr thank u enuff....

wildflower said...

Don't thank me, you could be sorry for me though :P